Sunday, January 8, 2012

I've Finally Figured It Out

Today at church my class had a lesson about how media can be used for good. We talked about all different types of media: facebook, youtube, email, twitter, blogging, tv, radio, and the list could go on and on. I shared some personal stories and they did, too. I told the girls that I blog but I have never shared with them my blog address and I have asked that my daughter does not share it either. For me, this is personal and something that I feel is very private - at least for this time in my life.

So we left church and my daughter and I were discussing the lesson on the way to the gas station - because the new car was almost out of gas - and how media seems to consume our lives whether for good or bad purposes. I thought about how my dear friend D down the street said she thinks we spend too much time on the computer (which I think she said she did, but I am applying it to myself as well) and that is something that really needs to change. So true! I walked into my house and my husband is in the "media room" which used to be called the living room but since it's where we all converge to use our technological devices, that's its new nickname. He was watching tv since he had driven himself to church and had gotten home well before us. We spoke briefly, daughter complained that it was beginning to rain (which means she couldn't practice outside) and I headed to the computer.

Checked my email.

Thought about checking in on Facebook.

Instead I came to my blog. I started reading down the updates on the right-hand side. I came across a post by April @ Bring the Rain called The Tyranny of Choice. Now I'm going to be honest, I don't always check to see what is going on in the bloggy world like I used to so I was behind in my reading. I am so glad that I made the choice to check today. Because this article spoke to me. It spoke to that person inside of me who doesn't really know what she is doing with her life right now. It spoke to my inability to make a decision lately that I am comfortable with and sticking to it. Quite simply: It spoke to me.

I am hoping that, if you should stumble upon my page, you'll take the time to really read it and not just skim over the context. Allow it to speak to you. Listen....and you might just find some answers along the way.

Friday, January 6, 2012

That Post Where You Ask Yourself "What do you want to do with your life?"

What is it about the new year that makes us sit down and really think about our lives? Where we are today? Where we were yesterday? Where we would like to be tomorrow? I don't know about the rest of the world, but for me the month of January is a time when I think about these things and what I have to do to try to make something wonderful happen in the new year.

It's sort of a time to create that wish list - things I want to do or want to achieve or would even like to try - but may not ever get around to accomplishing them.

Take for instance - I would LOVE to learn how to decorate cakes. I am that person that you see in Michaels or Hobby Lobby who is stalking the items on the Wilton aisle. Daydreaming about the creations made out of fondant and icing. And to confess, at one time in my life I bought an absurd about of baking pans, all with the intention of baking and decorating cakes. I use them every so often (read: not much) and still dream about decorating cakes. I have decorator tips in my kitchen - along with a lot of cookie cutters - that never get used any more.

I have probably spent a fortune on scrapboooking supplies. Die-cuts. Punches. Albums. Stickers. Pins. All sorts of things. The last time I actually scrapbooked? Okay, so I made albums for my daughter and her three best friends last year and they were adorable and I had a great time doing them - but I was also glad when I finished and I stuck all of my supplies back into the closet. I have boxes of pictures. That I have not scrapbooked. I would hate to think of the fortune that is sitting in the closet - waiting.

I used to sew. Not clothing - just mostly pajama bottoms and things for the holidays. The last thing that was a major undertaking was my daughter's halloween costume in the fifth grade. Her costume was incredible. I made a poodle skirt when she was in the sixth grade, but I did the basic one cut design that was easy and didn't require any sewing on my part. I have a stack of fabric upstairs that I need to make myself make use of because no matter how hard I try, I cannot allow myself to get rid of it and it would make cute pajama bottoms and who doesn't wear those at some point?

Now that I have some spare time on my hands, I literally have been trying to think of something fun to do WITH MY HANDS. It is still a little bit too cold here to work outside in the yard and the flowers are all dead or dormant. I could clean up the islands. Trim back the trees. Clean up the deck and our screened in back porch. Clean out the garage, too.

I could paint a room in the house. I could think about design and how I'd like new curtains in the living room. I could pick out paint colors. Artwork. Change the bedrooms. Paint the laundry room.

The new year holds so many possibilities. I think the problem for me is that I have not had this type of free time on my hands in so long that it is a little unnerving. What should I do first? Where do I begin? How do I decide? Hopefully I will find my way soon.

Tuesday, January 3, 2012

A New Year

We welcomed in the New Year in our usual fashion - the three family, all together in a big family hug. Not sure where that came from, but it's been a common practice more years than not. The cat, however, did not make it to that event...she was upstairs hiding under the bed while the neighbors shot off fireworks. Have I mentioned before that the cat is a scaredy cat?

I'm reveling in the fact that I don't have to go back to school this month. It's the first time in what feels like forever that I can say that. Right now I have no plans on pursuing anything else academically which would require my writing a check for tuition or ordering college textbooks. It feels a little strange to finally be able to say that I am finished. I feel like I should be out pounding the payment looking for a job but it's a little different with a teaching degree. That still seems so odd... I have a teaching degree! I am highly qualified to teach K-8 graders! Wow.

I am looking forward though to teaching and getting paid for it after my student teaching experience last semester. I have a mental 'list' of things I'd like to be able to do when I actually earn a pay check. Some of them are household related or things for the family. Some of them are those things that I'd love to do, but would never want to use the 'household' budget to pay for so they remain on my 'wish list' of sorts. Nothing drastic like kidnapping Hugh Jackman or Gerard Butler and holding them hostage.

I've been thinking about resolutions a lot. A friend mentioned she was considering not spending so much time on the computer. Why are we all so addicted to things like the computer, iPhones, iPads, iPods and the sort? Why do we, and I am including myself here, have such a hard time with shutting these devices off and just BEING? I can say this because I am the proud owner of an iPhone...and it is addictive! Hubs has a Blackberry - and it is equally addictive. So we are all either on the computers or some type of electronic device. It's insane! To break up the craziness we did actually manage to play a board game over Christmas vacation that did not require any electronics. By the end of the game, I swear everyone had the shakes! But I digress... I wish I could think of something to give up for the New Year that I wouldn't completely quit within just a few days! Maybe this will give me something to ponder as I am waiting to pick my daughter up from school today. Rather than playing on my iPhone.