Thursday, June 28, 2012

Keep on Keeping on

The past couple of days have been productive. I've managed to make myself (I had originally typed 'get') rid of a lot of things that are cluttering up my life. I've gone through closets and drawers. Cleaned under beds. Made some decisions and driven to the local donation center before I could change my mind. It feels much better. Now I am working on the worse room - the bonus room - aka the craft room from Hades. I have just let this room get worse and worse so late last night I walked through the door and sat down with two huge black trash bags. One for trash - one for donations. I'm making progress - it's slow progress - but still I am working my way into the room.

I know one thing that definitely has to go. I have an old arm chair from the furniture we used to have in the living room that I moved up there a few summers ago. It has long since seen its better days and I have to figure out a way to get it downstairs and to the local landfill. That will free up a lot of space. I think the matching ottoman may be in there as well - so it will go along for the ride.

I have too much craft stuff. Way too much. I didn't think that was a possible statement until I started working in there. I have fabric. Felt. Stickers. Paper. Markers. You name it - it's probably somewhere within that room. A lot of things I've held on to thinking I could use them in my classroom - but then again, I didn't take them in for the last 5 months of school - so will I really use them if I have another classroom in the fall? I have made myself throw away a good deal of the craft stuff that I feel just isn't where I am anymore as a crafter. I've come across a ton of pictures. I need to organize them all when this is finished. I'm even considering trying digital scrapbooking and having the books printed rather than thinking I'll actually create the pages myself. I wish The Bug and her friends were interested in scrapbooking - I could let them use up so much of the supply and then I would definitely feel better about it all.

My goal for the rest of the week is to continue getting rid of the clutter in there and then going back to the other rooms and putting everything back in its place. I figure Rome wasn't built in a day - it's not going to happen overnight - but I will never let this happen again. No matter how busy I was with student teaching and my sponsoring teacher having the nervous breakdown and leaving it all to me... I will never put taking care of what's important at home on the back burner. This is my home. My sanctuary. It deserved better.

Now, if only I could talk my husband into getting a pool. :)

Monday, June 25, 2012

Isn't it funny how people set out to do soul searching and the paths that they take to get to that result? For me... it involves deep cleaning my house. Going through each room armed with a box of black trash bags and a resolve to get rid of the stuff that seems to be cluttering up my life.

I recently read an article online about organization that said we wear 20% of our clothing 80% of the time. Read that sentence again. We are only really wearing 20% of the cloths that we own....almost all of the time! I am guilty of this. I have my 'favorite things' that I am always wearing. They are comfortable. They make me feel comfortable. This is something that I want to challenge myself about to see if it is definitely true and to see what I can do about it.

In my soul searching quiet time I have thought over a lot of things. Why am I the way I am? Why do I let things 'pile up' - as is the case with our guest room - it has become the dumping ground for everything lately that I've not wanted to deal with, put away or find a new home for items.So today my goal is to tackle this room. I want it to be in some sort of semi-order by the time my husband gets home from work today. I want to be able to sit back and relax with the family rather than thinking, 'wow, you really should go and clean up that room!'.

Summer is at the half-way point here. In four weeks The Bug has to report to camp. Then the insanity of a new school year begins. I'm not sure where I will be teaching, or even if I'll be teaching, this fall. My part-time position at the local elementary school ended at the end of the school year. I'm a little nervous about this - but grateful for the pay check that I'll continue to receive until the end of August. At this point, I am praying about it and trying to leave it at the foot of the cross. Why is it easier to pick it up and worry about it rather than leaving it for God to deal with and show me what I really need to do? I've been doing a lot of soul searching about this lately -

but that's a post for another day.

Wednesday, June 6, 2012

She said I Do....

With some of the bridesmaids

This past weekend my niece got married . It was like something out of a fairy venue was amazing. Her gown was unbelievable. The bridesmaids were gorgeous. The groom cried when he saw her walking down the aisle. It was a dream come true for so many of us. I wanted to share a few pictures while I'm still in recovery mode....
The waiting is the worst part ...

Thursday, March 15, 2012

I'm Going to Run Away...

My friend asked me tonight why I never update my blog... so I thought I'd take a few moments to catch up.

Sometimes I think I'd just like to hop in the car and drive away. Not for the long term...just for a short-term absence. Go some place, check into a hotel near the beach and be lazy. Sleep in all morning. Walk on the beach at night. Watch television. Doesn't that sound good sometimes?

Instead I have been working. Part-time. Teaching. I love my students. They are the same group I did my student teaching with and some of them were there when I did my first block of practicum a couple of years ago. They leave me notes on my desk about how much they love me and how they wish they could come home with me. It has been awesome.

The Bug is busy with Winter Guard. Which I guess is like a dance team...with rifles and flags. She is on the rifle line... and loves it. I would have never thought my daughter was a dancer... until I see her perform. She is a dancer. She has found her passion. I am so glad she's found that 'thing' so many kids seem to search for in high school.

So until the next time.... or until I write you from the beach :)

Sunday, January 8, 2012

I've Finally Figured It Out

Today at church my class had a lesson about how media can be used for good. We talked about all different types of media: facebook, youtube, email, twitter, blogging, tv, radio, and the list could go on and on. I shared some personal stories and they did, too. I told the girls that I blog but I have never shared with them my blog address and I have asked that my daughter does not share it either. For me, this is personal and something that I feel is very private - at least for this time in my life.

So we left church and my daughter and I were discussing the lesson on the way to the gas station - because the new car was almost out of gas - and how media seems to consume our lives whether for good or bad purposes. I thought about how my dear friend D down the street said she thinks we spend too much time on the computer (which I think she said she did, but I am applying it to myself as well) and that is something that really needs to change. So true! I walked into my house and my husband is in the "media room" which used to be called the living room but since it's where we all converge to use our technological devices, that's its new nickname. He was watching tv since he had driven himself to church and had gotten home well before us. We spoke briefly, daughter complained that it was beginning to rain (which means she couldn't practice outside) and I headed to the computer.

Checked my email.

Thought about checking in on Facebook.

Instead I came to my blog. I started reading down the updates on the right-hand side. I came across a post by April @ Bring the Rain called The Tyranny of Choice. Now I'm going to be honest, I don't always check to see what is going on in the bloggy world like I used to so I was behind in my reading. I am so glad that I made the choice to check today. Because this article spoke to me. It spoke to that person inside of me who doesn't really know what she is doing with her life right now. It spoke to my inability to make a decision lately that I am comfortable with and sticking to it. Quite simply: It spoke to me.

I am hoping that, if you should stumble upon my page, you'll take the time to really read it and not just skim over the context. Allow it to speak to you. Listen....and you might just find some answers along the way.

Friday, January 6, 2012

That Post Where You Ask Yourself "What do you want to do with your life?"

What is it about the new year that makes us sit down and really think about our lives? Where we are today? Where we were yesterday? Where we would like to be tomorrow? I don't know about the rest of the world, but for me the month of January is a time when I think about these things and what I have to do to try to make something wonderful happen in the new year.

It's sort of a time to create that wish list - things I want to do or want to achieve or would even like to try - but may not ever get around to accomplishing them.

Take for instance - I would LOVE to learn how to decorate cakes. I am that person that you see in Michaels or Hobby Lobby who is stalking the items on the Wilton aisle. Daydreaming about the creations made out of fondant and icing. And to confess, at one time in my life I bought an absurd about of baking pans, all with the intention of baking and decorating cakes. I use them every so often (read: not much) and still dream about decorating cakes. I have decorator tips in my kitchen - along with a lot of cookie cutters - that never get used any more.

I have probably spent a fortune on scrapboooking supplies. Die-cuts. Punches. Albums. Stickers. Pins. All sorts of things. The last time I actually scrapbooked? Okay, so I made albums for my daughter and her three best friends last year and they were adorable and I had a great time doing them - but I was also glad when I finished and I stuck all of my supplies back into the closet. I have boxes of pictures. That I have not scrapbooked. I would hate to think of the fortune that is sitting in the closet - waiting.

I used to sew. Not clothing - just mostly pajama bottoms and things for the holidays. The last thing that was a major undertaking was my daughter's halloween costume in the fifth grade. Her costume was incredible. I made a poodle skirt when she was in the sixth grade, but I did the basic one cut design that was easy and didn't require any sewing on my part. I have a stack of fabric upstairs that I need to make myself make use of because no matter how hard I try, I cannot allow myself to get rid of it and it would make cute pajama bottoms and who doesn't wear those at some point?

Now that I have some spare time on my hands, I literally have been trying to think of something fun to do WITH MY HANDS. It is still a little bit too cold here to work outside in the yard and the flowers are all dead or dormant. I could clean up the islands. Trim back the trees. Clean up the deck and our screened in back porch. Clean out the garage, too.

I could paint a room in the house. I could think about design and how I'd like new curtains in the living room. I could pick out paint colors. Artwork. Change the bedrooms. Paint the laundry room.

The new year holds so many possibilities. I think the problem for me is that I have not had this type of free time on my hands in so long that it is a little unnerving. What should I do first? Where do I begin? How do I decide? Hopefully I will find my way soon.

Tuesday, January 3, 2012

A New Year

We welcomed in the New Year in our usual fashion - the three family, all together in a big family hug. Not sure where that came from, but it's been a common practice more years than not. The cat, however, did not make it to that event...she was upstairs hiding under the bed while the neighbors shot off fireworks. Have I mentioned before that the cat is a scaredy cat?

I'm reveling in the fact that I don't have to go back to school this month. It's the first time in what feels like forever that I can say that. Right now I have no plans on pursuing anything else academically which would require my writing a check for tuition or ordering college textbooks. It feels a little strange to finally be able to say that I am finished. I feel like I should be out pounding the payment looking for a job but it's a little different with a teaching degree. That still seems so odd... I have a teaching degree! I am highly qualified to teach K-8 graders! Wow.

I am looking forward though to teaching and getting paid for it after my student teaching experience last semester. I have a mental 'list' of things I'd like to be able to do when I actually earn a pay check. Some of them are household related or things for the family. Some of them are those things that I'd love to do, but would never want to use the 'household' budget to pay for so they remain on my 'wish list' of sorts. Nothing drastic like kidnapping Hugh Jackman or Gerard Butler and holding them hostage.

I've been thinking about resolutions a lot. A friend mentioned she was considering not spending so much time on the computer. Why are we all so addicted to things like the computer, iPhones, iPads, iPods and the sort? Why do we, and I am including myself here, have such a hard time with shutting these devices off and just BEING? I can say this because I am the proud owner of an iPhone...and it is addictive! Hubs has a Blackberry - and it is equally addictive. So we are all either on the computers or some type of electronic device. It's insane! To break up the craziness we did actually manage to play a board game over Christmas vacation that did not require any electronics. By the end of the game, I swear everyone had the shakes! But I digress... I wish I could think of something to give up for the New Year that I wouldn't completely quit within just a few days! Maybe this will give me something to ponder as I am waiting to pick my daughter up from school today. Rather than playing on my iPhone.