It's here - the post-Christmas feeling that I get every year that tells me all of the things that I wish I had done differently. Because this year, dear friends, I was NOT ready for Christmas. Sure, I managed to get the tree up. I bought and wrapped all the presents. Sent cards. But then ... there was so much that I did not accomplish. Why? Various reasons. Finishing up my classes. People that I love being sick. Bad weather. Being lazy. All sorts of reasons. So on Christmas Eve night, as we watched the movie we affectionately call "Ralphie" I sat and made a list of the things I wished I had done differently. Decorated more. Entertained. Baked cookies. Built gingerbread houses. Dug the wreaths out and hung them on the windows and doors. Put Rudolph on the mailbox. Gone to Starbucks for hot drinks and drove around with the family looking at everyone's decorations.
When I was a little girl, I remember my grandmother would say that time flew as you got older. Granted she was in her 60s when I came along, but how true a statement that was! Time flies! Before we know it, it'll be Easter and Christmas 2011 will be all but a distant memory.
As we prepare for the New Year, I sit here and wonder what changes will experience in the next 365+ days? I also sit and ask myself, Is this the year that I make the decision and stick to it that I'll get healthy? Lord, I hope so! Will this be the year that I am more prepared for the holidays? Will I stop worrying and start enjoying my life? Only time will tell. But as I move forward, I do feel like I'm turning a page in my life, going into a new direction. That feels good. I hope as I find time to reflect on 2012, I will find myself feeling proud of my accomplishments.