Friday, December 25, 2009

Christmas Reflections

Things are winding down here at home. We opened presents this morning as a family and had some time to relax before we headed down to my parents' house to celebrate the holiday with them and with my sister and her family. It seems strange to have a holiday without Joseph here at home - I heard though that he had a good day and had a good meal in Iraq and had a chance to call his wife and his Mom and sister this morning.

This year, for me at least, everything felt rushed. It might have to do with the fact that we were planning an anniversary party for my parents and that I had taken on the responsibility of trying to plan an activity for the class that I am teaching at church and the additional responsibility of letting The Bug have a party in the mix of things. With the prep work at my parents' house and my being so sick this past month, in addition to my grandmother becoming ill and passing, things got way out of hand. I usually pride myself on being organized and having all sorts of holiday fun and merriment. This year I was at the mall on Christmas Eve, wrapping gifts after 9 o'clock last night, leaving "Santa" some store bought cookies from Walmart and hoping and praying that I didn't forget anything. I think I tried to overcompensate my reluctance in getting things done by overbuying for The bug...but in my defense, I stayed near my original budget.

I used to participate in this holiday preparation group online - we would start early in the season just to be prepared for Christmas. I think I'm going to pull out my old notebook and look at how I can incorporate the plan back into our life next year. I missed doing so many things this year - decorating our gingerbread house, having my cookie exchange, sitting down and doing our Christmas cards, decorating the yard and the house from top to bottom.

My classes start back in January - I'll be taking a full load of 13 or 14 hours. I will do 12 hours of observations/practicum in an elementary school classroom. This will probably be my life for the next 5 semesters as my advisor says it'll take that long to complete the core requirements. Things are going to be very busy. I need to work out the details to be able to balance home life and all that is important here and my school life and not allow myself to feel overwhelmed when it comes to celebrating the important things in life.

With that being said, I am excited about the possibilities that the new year will bring. I should hopefully have some Christmas pictures to share soon - I just need to get them off of my camera.

What about your Christmas do's and don'ts? anything that you left off the list this year because time just wouldn't accommodate it?

Sunday, December 20, 2009

Mamaw

My Grandmother, affectionately known as Mamaw N around our home, passed away this past Friday. She had been in the hospital twice within the month. Once from chronic heart failure and the other from pneumonia. We (my husband, myself and The Bug) arrived at the hospital about five minutes too late.

Momma and Daddy were both there, as were my two aunts. Momma told me that Thursday night my Mamaw was laying in the bed and quoting Bible scripture. She told The Bug that we are told to memorize scripture and to hid it in our hearts for times when we need it. If there was one thing to be known, she was an amazing woman of faith and I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that she is in heaven now. Rejoicing with her husband, my grandfather, who died in October of 1987. My brother. My uncle, their second son, who died three years ago. Her Mother, who died when my grandmother was just a few months old.

I guess in this post I just want to say. Tell the people whom you love how much they mean to you. If you think you are too busy to visit with your family and the people that you love, then believe me, you have your priorities all wrong. I've had a hard time dealing with the fact that I really didn't visit her like I know I should have. I've realized these past few days just how much I have missed out on with that side of my family because we thought life revolved around where we were and that we didn't really have the time to go and spend with all of them. I have 7 first cousins on that side. I only see them at funerals these days. I was talking to "G", who was my absolute favorite cousin when I was a little girl today, we were talking about one time that we got trapped in the barn at Papaw and Mamaw's house - it was Easter and there we were, doing what we shouldn't have been doing (playing in the loft) when the cows all came along and we couldn't get back downstairs. In our Sunday best. Papaw came to our rescue. Good times. And so many opportunities to make good memories like this that I have missed out on over the years.

I'm exhausted from driving so much lately and off to bed. Be kind. Merry Christmas.

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

It's already Tuesday and Christmas is how many days away???

I cannot believe that we are only 10 days away from Christmas. When did this happen? Where did the end of November and the first 15 days of December go? I want them back!!! I need more time!!!

Ever feel that way? Like time is actually like sand through the hour glass (thank you Days of Our Lives)? I sometimes stop and think that I'm so busy trying to do for my family and take care of everything that one day I'm actually going to sit down and realize I'm old and time has flown by in my rear view mirror. What can you do to stop time? We always threaten that we're going to put a book on The Bug's head and hide her away from the sunshine to keep her little...but then there's that dealing with DFACS thing and I'd rather not get involved. LOL

I am bound and determined to get some Christmas gifts wrapped and under the tree tonight. The problem is that I've overbought... I could tell when I peered into the hiding closet today and saw everything that was in there. I need to get some things together and in the mail to my nephew who is in Iraq. I feel guilty not having mailed anything yet, but I figure this will be a birthday/Christmas package - his birthday is in a month.

Went shopping with Momma today. She has convinced me to go to one of those boutique's where they actually fit you for a bra. She has tried to convince me to do this for a while...but I caved this afternoon and made an appointment for a fitting for later this week. I will have to report all of the embarrassing details. I am also going to see my grandmother at the hospital. This will be our Christmas visit and I am not sure what to take her. I thought about doing a miniature tree with lights for her room - but she's never really been the type to put up a tree. I am considering something like a poinsettia. Just not sure. She is not doing well though - she is barely eating and there is internal bleeding somewhere as they've given her two pints of blood this week.

I have my appointment tomorrow to find out what my class schedule will be like in January. I am nervous. Imagine that??? I also talked to the teacher that I will work with for my first practicum. I will be at the elementary school where The Bug was a student for five years so I know the territory and the staff and the dress code! LOL ... Here I am worried about what to wear to work!!! I am hoping we'll find out tomorrow how many days we'll be at the schools so that I can get an idea of what life is going to be like around here come January. I want to take as many classes as possible so that I can hurry up and get this part of my education over and done.

Think that's about it for now. Sick and tired of all the rain we've had recently. Every time the rain starts up, I start to worry about getting sick again. It's not fun!

The Momster

Monday, December 14, 2009

Catching UP

A lot has been going on around here.

My grandmother is in the hospital again. She has pneumonia. It's all very touch and go. I am trying to wait till Friday to go and visit with her as this is the last week of school and The Bug wants to go as well. Daddy said if we'd wait till Friday we could all go up together.

We had to cancel my parents' anniversary party due to her hospitalization. When we initially got the call that she was going to the hospital we thought she wouldn't make it through the weekend. We've said a lot of prayers and been in constant contact to find out how she's doing and what her progress has been. Momma finally said that maybe it's just not meant to be - the party that is.

I am trying to fight off getting sick again as we are in the mist of some really dreary weather. Hubs has decided to start praying for snow for Christmas...since we prayed all summer long for rain. Maybe we'll get lucky, you know? I'd love to have snow at Christmas...that hasn't happened in a long time!

I'm working my way through the paperwork involved in going back to school. Trying to make sure I have all of my ducks in a row. I have a meeting on campus on Wednesday and hopefully after that I'll know what my schedule of classes is going to be like. I am seriously praying that they work out with my family's schedule. It might sound crazy, but I hope there are a lot of classes to choose from this semester because I plan on really loading myself up and getting through with this. I know where I will be for my first practicum...it's at the elementary school where my daughter went and where used to sub all of the time. At least I am familiar with the administration and the faculty. I don't have to worry about what their dress code is either because I already know...that's one less thing to worry about! Now I just wonder how many days a week I'll be there!

I think that's all for now. Still need to wrap gifts. The tree is up - and that's about it for us this year. And that's fine. I'm trying to break out of my overachiever frame of mind and just be happy with what we've got on hand. Hopefully that's easier done than said. :)

Merry Christmas!
The Momster.. :)

Wednesday, December 9, 2009

It's official - I am an overplanner...

I have officially decided to share with the cyber world a little tidbit of information about myself. I tend to take on more than I can handle. I overschedule. Overplan. I am an overthinker. Rather than settling for simplicity, I have to think of things on a grander scale. It's becoming extremely annoying in my day to day life. I think I might need therapy. Preferably not the retail type...as it tends to lead to these grand ideas that seldom get finished.

Before getting the crypt keeper's cold (as it is affectionately known now), I was in the process of trying to make heads or tails out of my stuff in our bonus room. That room is complicated. Heck, it might need therapy before it's all over and done. It is the bane of my existence. My Achilles heel. Let's see if I can explain this in great detail -

The bonus room used to be the room with the family computer and spare tv/stereo system. It was a comfy, cozy room at the end of the hallway - a haven where I could go to escape the day to day dealings of life or to sit and wait for the washer to finish the spin cycle - which ever one happened to be a priority at the time. The cat would snooze on the love seat. The closets were brimming with craft supplies and paperbacks and out of season clothes. Until one day.... (insert creepy organ music here).... one of the closets collapsed. Followed by the other closet collapsing. Followed by our decision that the computer was disrupting our family relationships and we decided to move it downstairs to the living room so it would be like we were actually, you know, living together. The room then sort of became 'neglected'. Heck, let's be honest, it became that neglected child that you just sit in the corner and comment on but never really spend any time with.

In all honesty, every time I go in there to try to sort through the holiday decorations or craft supplies or even the movies on VHS tapes, I feel like it's a job that I just don't want to do. Or I get sick, like last week, taking away an entire week that I had devoted to trying to organize that beast before classes start for me in January. I did manage to sort through a good amount of stuff, determining a donations box, recycles box and a box full of trash. But there are times when I consider just getting rid of everything - until I realize the money that I have invested in craft material and stuff like that - and I feel like I am back at square one.

My intention was to sort through the fall decorations before returning them to the attic. Today I just gave up. I put the tubs inside the room...and shut the door behind me. It'll have to wait till another day. I don't have time to worry about it with everything else going on.

Pathetic, isn't it?

Saturday, December 5, 2009

It's Beginning To Look A Lot Like Christmas...

Wow - the season is upon us. Where did November go? Much less October or even September? Heck, what about my 20s and 30s? Okay, so maybe that's too much...but you get my drift...

The Bug is at a STN party and we have the house to ourselves but rather than having date night, I am instead upstairs with the humidifier going full steam ahead with no voice and chronic bronchitis while I watch "White Christmas" on AMC. I love this movie...It was always one of my Mom's favorites and often times we watched it while we put up our Christmas tree at our house.

This week is packed with activities.
  • Wednesday night is the youth-wide Christmas Party at Church... exciting!
  • Thursday is the choral winter concert. She is in the treble choir and really is enjoying being in this 'elite' group although some of her friends are giving her a hard time because their director always says "treble does this and this and that" whenever she scolds the mixed choir. Times have changed - when I was in school it was a bigger deal to make it into the mixed choir... who knows?
  • Aside from that, I am taking a group of 7th and 8th grade students to see a local church's Living Christmas Tree production on Friday night - and then we are hitting Starbucks for some refreshments. I'm excited about this since it'll be our first official out of the class activity and another opportunity to get to know the girls in my class a little bit better.
  • Saturday night The Bug is having a party here at the house and seems excited about it. I'm creating a few games for the girls to play - hopefully I'll finish them in time - one being Santaopoly... my Christmas spin on Monopoly. I'll have to post pictures!
  • Sunday we are finally having my parents 50th Wedding Anniversary party. We're doing a Christmas open house and combining them. I only hope everything goes as planned as my being sick certainly isn't much help!

So with the busy schedule, I am in serious need of a cure for this sore throat/stuffy nose/coughing/feverish shell of a body of mine. If you have any suggestions, I'm all ears... I have got to get better and soon. Apparently the antibiotics aren't doing the trick as I still have the fever. My throat is killing me! And the week following is even busier!